"Speaking of lairs, mine has been getting to know me slowly .. this house has been here a long time longer than me, and there are stories in the walls I am sure. I feel like each day I have nested and arranged and unpacked and boiled the kettle and sat painting, I wafted metaphorical Rima into the house as others have done before me, and the walls are sniffing me to see what they think." Rima Staines - The Hermitage
This is one of my favorite quotes. The first time I read it I was so taken with her choice of imagery "the walls are sniffing me to see what they think." I feel that happening now, here at Blue Moon Cottage except we've moved past the sniffing stage and moved onto hugging. This house "sniffed" me out the first time I walked through the door and like what it saw, I truly believe that. I also believe that was part of the reason why everything so incredibly smoothly with the whole process of buying this house.
I lived in the other house for 22 years, rented it for 22 years. It was a house, it kept us warm, safe and dry but it never felt like HOME to me. Some of it had to do with the fact that it was never truly mine, some of it because the worst period of my life happened there, but so did some of the best, the most magickal, most evolved times in my life. I hold the memories dear but it was past time for me to go, to move on. In fact over the last few years I think the house was ready for me to leave before I was. When the house was finally empty again of all traces of mine and my kids life we both seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, we both knew my time in that house was done. Since we've moved I have heard that the landlord has torn up all the greenery around the house and yard...stripping the whole place bare, inside and out, starting over with a clean slate.
Blue Moon Cottage on the other hand is mine, completely mine and not just because the mortgage and title are in my name, but mine in a deeper sense, as in I BELONG there. I know this much, I have never slept so peacefully anywhere else....as soon as I get home I feel at peace....from the first time I pulled into the drive as the new owner it has NEVER felt weird, there was no "adjustment" period, I have never drove home towards the "old" house, it just feels like it has always been that way instead of just a few weeks....and that's when you know your roots are growing in the right place......
Blessed Be.
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